i dun moved passed the mourning of flesh beneath the skin that now slightly hangs about
in anticipation of the tightening that comes with movement.
and I dun gone through some dancing notions about suicide and giving up on the life worth living
the fight i still got to give
like dat conquering lion riding
and me as apart of the ceremony
this disease has made things clearer than before
made them into real things
now no longer abstract
i feel as though i know something more
my time here has always been short
no fretting there or crocodile tears.
i carry a years worth of sundays for this world
a flower i have to give
my body has felt worse
will and might makes it better
intention makes it strong
powerful enough to accept the embrace of love ive missed
my mind is sharp
ready to be put to task
for liberation. for my people. for our universe
I no longer have time to cry over how i’ve done myself or how i been done.
cause i have a deeper love
And this is a spell i cast for myself tonight.
in spite of the day that has been
and because of those to come.