ancestors give me strength.
ahm really struggling.
this is day two of having intense dreams about relapse and waking up wid fire in mah stomach.
dis disease is powerful- makes me see the only way into the embrace of another man as being through usage.
ah know dat loneliness is more than that for me. it is about the process of coming to comfort wid yo’self and not just findin’ that holdin’ in ‘nother man but it sure feels kinda nice. to be held.
affirmation made to mahself: “you is beautiful, perfect, and whole just as you is- you is beautiful, perfect, and whole just as you is. all that you need in love and life is there or on the way- waiting for you to be ready. be still. be present and enjoy this movement.”